heart and this feeling

assalamualaikum,, just now (few hour),, tergerak hati nak google search seorang budak yang dah deactivate facebook, rindulah kononnya.. what makes me fall my tears down my cheek was this guy over here, i thought that he become more to religious, but what i found was a sad case,, kite dah same-same jahat rupenye.. tapi malangnye kau bahagia.. aq rindu kau yang dulu yang baik yang hormat wanita.. hmm,, mungkin juga itu bukan kau yang sebenar,, mungkin juga die itu takde dalam diri aku sebab tu kau dengan die.. mungkin aku bukan orang yang kau boleh pegang, belai  sebab tu kau cari dia, mungkin aku bukan orang yang kau bole angkut ke mana-mana , bila-bila, siang malam, sebab tu kau tarik dia.. mungkin aku bukan orang yang on off tudung, tunjuk cantik, so kau bole bangga bile keluar sesama, sebab tu kau sayang dia.. mungkin aku tak mampu belanja kau jam, baju, barang branded, sebab tu kau sanjung dia..mungkin aku bukan mcm dia, ada segalanya yang kau perlu, sebab tu kau kejar dia.. mana kau yang dulu.. aku rindu.. rindu bukan aku nak kembali.. tapi rindu kawan yang baik hati.. tinggi budi perketi.. yang tak jemu senyum.. ikhlas menguntum..yang dihati penuh hormat.. agama tak lupa tersemat.. yang sempoi.. bukan playboy.. haih,, kecewa..

ART is....

yeup,, bru balik kelas seni .. found some new friends,, cikgu pon ok Cikgu Su,, mm,, tadi briefing je.. die soh bentuk kumpulan,, group aq ade 4 org.. nme group kitorg nun "Fuchsia" ,, its actually a scientific name of colour,, pinkish purple,, dont ask why,, its not that we all like pink,, bute the name,, just a unique name, haha,, bkn tu yg aq nak cite sbnrnye.. time ice breaking tu,, like usual ,, introduce ur self la an?.. mmm,, what i can see is that,, there's people out there that are already special,, they dont have to impress the whole class,, but some of them ,, they just not being gifted that such speciality , so they must work hard in case to impress others,, hah.. and thet is ME.. =.= *facepalm*.. ade  jgk yang tak perlu buat ap2,, just dtg ngan muke lawa ,, solek2 sikit,, dpt jadi pengerusi,, ade yg dilahirkan dgn bakat mengeluarkn kata2 "pematah semngat" ,, haha,, ok,, top here,, another story aq nak mory skit,, smpi stu part Cikgu Su soh ceritakan pandangan kitorg terhadap seni itu sendiri.. pergh mcm2 lah yg keluar,, seni itu inilah,, seni itu ibarat bla bla,, art is _____ (fill in the blank).. haha. tapi bag aq , si penggiat seni,, seni itu universal,, infinity imagination,, imaginasi atas kertas ,, ilustrasi hati ,, mimpi indah,, luahan kate2 yg tak bole nak digambarkan dgn kate2,, Art is part of me,, (echeeeewah).. yup.. Art is part of my life,, sekian..




  

this is fruschia,, the name of the color was invested from this beautiful flower,,

SEMESTER BARU!!

yeah.. smpi da sem 2 ni ha,, da hari kedua pon,, dkt 3 mggu dok umah aritu tak update pon menatang ni,,( sbb takde ternet) ,, ehem2.. kk.. let's start with first day (day when aq kne register masuk bilik),, guest what?.. aq tggl sorg ... TADAAAAA!!,, hahah,, =.=",, ngek.. sbb ap?.. sbbnye miss gucchi what-so-ever nun , last minute ckp nk dok ngan kwn die,, agak bengang gak la kpale aq mase tuh,, dgn risaunye takut tak boleh amik kunci sbb takde rumet bersame,, but then aq decide nak call Hanum(bukan name sebenar) ,, die ni mase sem stau rancg nak duk ngan aq abb tak tahan ngan rumet die mase tuh (mls nak cite knp).. di pendekkn cite,, die ckp kwn die pelawe duk same,, *face palm*.. aq terngange kat situ,, haih,, mengeluh abis la merungut,, n then,, time nak tulis nme tu,, mama aq ckp "ckp je rumet ko blom smpi ,, bru bertolak dri Kedah ",, nthen akk tu tegak trus pecaye,, hahahha, sooooooooo.. aq tggl sorg skrg.. lg best sebnrnye,,hihihihi,, bebas,, nk Gangnam Style pon bole,, Poco Poco jgn tanye la,, huuuuuuu,, ok ,,until then,, gebye,,

im reading
on this lately,,
 blom abis lagi pon .. cite psl  vamps,, erk,, gotta find myself a  good read real soon..

you know what?...im worried

freakingly worried,, Y U NO Understand me?...aishhhh,, susah la mcm ni,, aq tak nk la rse cmni,, i hate this feeling,, feeling of losing, , maybe im too fucking care , arghh,, aq mungkin takkn sedia klu anything happen in the future..u know?...my heart sre in your hand,,its not kinda things to play with,,keep it safe,,oh damn,, tak suke la perasan cmni,,scumbag tau?..knpela ko tak phm tiap kali ko nak off skype awal aq akn wat muke tak ske?..a moment please?..aishh,, i hate good bye,, keep this a note..ok?..aduh,,until here, XOXO

The Script

hell yeah,,im in love with their song lately, DeadMan Walking, If You Ever Come Back, Before the  Worst,, n most entertain me a lot Exit Wound.. not really sure what the song means..

New Album #3

"Exit Wounds"

My hands are cold, my body's numb
I'm still in shock, what have you done?
My head is pounding, my vision's blurred                               
Your mouth is moving, I don't hear a word

And I hurt so bad, that I search my skin
For the entry point, where love went in
And ricocheted and bounced around
And left a hole when you walked out, yeah

I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these exit wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds
Wounds!
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping

Marks of battle, they still feel raw
A million pieces of me, on the floor
I'm damaged goods, for all to see
Now who would ever wanna be with me?

I've got all the baggage, drink the pills
Yeah, this is living but without the will
I'm backing out, I'm shutting down
You left a hole when you walked out, yeah

I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these exit wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds
Wounds!
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping

[x4]
Lose your clothes and show your scars that's who you are

Marks of battle, they still feel raw
A million pieces of me, on the floor

I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these exit wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds
Wounds!
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping
Exit wounds
Where they're leaving, the scars you're keeping

oppa vs noona

aigooo,,long time no post ha?...haha. secara am nya.. berdasarkan goolgle translate,, oppa means abang and noona means kakak,, ape yg aq nak tekankan ni sebenrnye adalah,,peranan seseorg yg  aq syg dlm relationship kitorg,,haih,,,"i want you to be my oppa not me to be ur noona"... ap maksud die ni?.. mm, actually,, ape yg aq maksdkn adalah,, aq nak Mr Grey aq tu jadi "abang" bkn aq yg jdi "kakak" die,,pnt la.. sblm ni.. in my previous relationship ,, aq je yg jadi"kakak"...kadang2 tunak jgk jadi "adik"..ape yg aq mengarut ni?.. mean,, aq pnt jadi terlalu caring,, aq nak di-caring-kan.. aq nak dimanjekan plak,,aq da btaw Mr Grey aq tu,,but lame kelamaan mcm aq yg byk manjekan die,,aduhhh,, tak best la,,this is not what im expecting . tolong la paham.. tolong la jadi "oppa"aq,,,T_T...  until here,, lega skit da tulis something..XOXO

Another story bout this lil josei

yeah,,meet again, mmm,, girls,,Y U NO smile back to me?..penat tau senyum ngan ko,,tak yah nakbelagak senior sgt la please,, n one more thing yg aq tak ske psl akak2 senior kat sini,,mereka hanya senyum bile terdpt lelaki disini dan sekeliling beliau,, huh!!,,tgk la,,senyum kat makcik2 cleaner kat sini pon susah,, aq bole terime klu diorg punye alasan taknak balas senyuman aq sbb diorg tu senior ( so tkyah nak senyum kt adik2 ni sgt, jtuh standard,, nnt diorg pijak kepal.....WTF??),,but at least senyum kat makcik2 tu,,,diorg la  yg pi bsuh toilettepat korg mandi buang segale hajat,,ish..tak patut btol,,dpn lelaki bkn main manis lagi muke hang an?,,aigoooooo..kan ad pepatah,, "KALAU NAK ORG LAIN HORMAT KITE< FIRST< KITE HORMAT ORG DULU"..btol tak?..hahah...think bout it...XOXO